I wanna go running!

[5ft Diva]

Can I just tell you that I'm going crazy not being able to go running? Since becoming pregnant I have had to limit my activity and it's so weird. I probably could've kept it up in the beginning, but didn't and now trying to start up would be a joke. It will be so nice after the baby is born (and after recovering from my c-section) to start running again. This is baby #6 though so I can wait the ENTIRE time before it comes. I'm in no rush to add another schedule into the mix quite yet. I just love the high I get from finishing a run. I suppose you could say I'm going through withdrawals.

[runamyrun]

I can totally relate! With this pregnancy I did run the first trimester, but then I stopped. I hate working out inside, but when I am pregnant I don't dare or want to do anything outside in the winter. I can't wait until it starts to warm up, so maybe I can go walking. Who know, maybe I will just want to be lazy. I think relaxing during pregnancy is mentally nice for my running. It helps me to appreciate it even more when I can actually do it! This may sound weird, but the other day I realized that I missed the way my lungs feel when I breath, when I am in shape from running. I love taking a deep breath and feeling how strong they are. I know it is weird, but it really makes me feel healthy!

[5ft Diva]

Not weird at all and I totally can't see you being lazy when you have this baby. If you decide to go walking when it's nicer, maybe I'll go w/ you. At that point, I'll probably have had my baby so it'll be a nice way to prep my body for running.

[Dia Minha]

I really didn't want to put a damper on your desires at all gals, but just remember you really wouldn't want it any different than what you have right now. Enjoy it. Love it. Cherish it.

Dia

[Dia Minha]

I'm sorry if I offended you Diva. I noticed you must of deleted a post, because I got an email with your post, but it isn't here. I have just been keeping my mouth shut, because everything that I start to say I realize someone could take offense to. And it isn't that I don't love you pregnant woman, I just don't trust myself around you.

I do know what you mean. Not in respect to being pregnant and not being able to run, but to wanting to run and can't. Due to some urinary incontinence problems, brought on by having to many big babies, I can't run more than 2-5 minutes at a time. I could have surgery to fix it, but then I wouldn't be able to have any more babies. So I have to be sure, before I go through with it.

Ladies, I didn't read your posts as complaining about being pregnant. I just felt like I needed, for my own sake, to remind myself, that sometimes I say or want things out of frustration when in reality I wouldn't really want it any other way.

Dia

[5ft Diva]

Originally Posted by Dia Minha

I'm sorry if I offended you Diva. I noticed you must of deleted a post, because I got an email with your post, but it isn't here. I have just been keeping my mouth shut, because everything that I start to say I realize someone could take offense to. And it isn't that I don't love you pregnant woman, I just don't trust myself around you.

I do know what you mean. Not in respect to being pregnant and not being able to run, but to wanting to run and can't. Due to some urinary incontinence problems, brought on by having to many big babies, I can't run more than 2-5 minutes at a time. I could have surgery to fix it, but then I wouldn't be able to have any more babies. So I have to be sure, before I go through with it.

Ladies, I didn't read your posts as complaining about being pregnant. I just felt like I needed, for my own sake, to remind myself, that sometimes I say or want things out of frustration when in reality I wouldn't really want it any other way.

Dia

Dia, you did not offend me. I did respond to your post, but I could tell after reading it that the right tone would not be conveyed via computer so I deleted it.

I can appreciate your thoughts and I still would like to go running. I have a lot of frustrations that have been built up during this pregnancy and would like to get them out and usually running will do that for me. That's all.

For real, don't think another thing of it. I am not offended. Please, who could be offended by sweet Dia????

So.....what's this about you not trusting yourself around us pregnant women? Would you mind elaborating? I'm sorry if it is obvious and I'm just not getting it, I tend to be a little slow sometimes.

[Dia Minha]

I have yet to figure out how to quote parts and pieces, so I'll just jump in and hopefully you will be able to connect it all.

I am really fighting climbing into the black hole of depression. I refuse to let myself down into that hole again. In doing so, I find myself bitter, angry and hurt a lot. Because I hurt so much on the inside, I find myself thinking and saying thing about and to others, that I normally wouldn't. My WW leader has a saying, "The amount of pain people inflict on others is directly porpotional to the amount they feel".

There have been moments when a woman has declared they are 18 weeks along in their pregnancy. My first thought is they shouldn't be so happy and relieved, I lost Levi at 18 weeks, why do they think they are immune. There have been many times I have found myself just walking away, because I don't know what to say, but knowing if I did say something it would just increase anxiety in the mother, which every woman has enough of while pregnant. Yet, I hurt so much and have to fight the desire to make them hurt just has much.

Because of all this I feel like every thought and/or word that comes from my head and mouth sounds bitter, angry and hurtful. I find myself closing in and not trusting myself around anybody I might offend. I have been here just about every day. I read everything, however, do not trust myself to say anything, with the fear of regretting it later. Even after I posted here, I wanted to take it back and post something supportive and uplifting that would be of help. But that would be like me pushing you from behind, because I'm trying to climb out of a hole, that you are already standing above.

I'm sorry you are frustrated. I have been there. I can relate to the problem of trying to squeeze out one my place to put one more little body. I just can't help and think that I would rather be sleeping in the same room with a crib and a very much alive sleeping, crying all hours of the night, baby, then living with the guilt of being relieved not to have had to buy a new vehicle to fit one more car seat and rearrange the already not enough space to create a spot for one more being and all his things. I know how easy it is to want what you can't have. If I was where you are right now, I would be just as frustrated. So I have no right to tell you, you shouldn't be. Thus, my fear of offending by saying something hurtful. Or even just being a reminder of what could happen causing constant fear and anxiety.

I'm relieved to know that you still see me as sweet. Maybe I have been enough aware of my inner pain that I have been able to achieve some success in not offending or hurting those I love and care for.

Dia

[5ft Diva]

I have lots to comment on w/ your last post. First and foremost. This place is called BodynSpirit for a reason. You will not be judged (at least by me) for what you are feeling and how you are choosing to express those feelings. When I read your post I heard a woman who is still grieving the loss of her child and someone who has been through trauma. These are two seperate issues and there is no one right way to handle them.

My SIL who miscarried at 18 weeks says that she feels (and sometimes says) the same things you feel when you hear someone declaring how far along they are. Based on her experiences, I would say your thoughts and feelings are pretty normal and - okay.

Dia, in all of this, I read that you are feeling one way, feel bad about feeling it and so you stuff it back down hoping it'll just work it's way out somehow. It's okay w/ me if you let it come out. Even if it is in controlled amounts (which is what I do and I don't know if it's good or bad) - let it get out of your system. And if you need it from someone, you have my permission to feel sad, bad, angry...whatever and however you need to.

I hope you feel this is a safe place to vent your feelings. You may get some people giving you their opinions on the matter, but that is all it is - opinions.

I love ya and hope to hear more from you in the future. Please don't feel like you have tip toe around me because you might say something you might regret. Just say it - c'mon, it's me we're talking about here!

[Footprints Nursery]

I wanna go running too..
Have never before ran in my life but I feel a need to go running I get up each morning at 5 am and go for a 45 minute walk and I jog a little, but I just feel like running. I am going to work my way up to running may take me awhile but I am going to run.

Darhlia

[natickgirl]

Good for you, Footprints. I am sooooo not a runner, but I admire those who are. (I have a bad knee; can't last more than 1/2 mile & then I'm limping for a few days.) Good luck in your efforts.

Diva, are you still aching to go running now that the baby is actually here?

[5ft Diva]

Oh, it's killing me to not go out. I am feeling pretty good, but I think my immune system is still pretty low and so I want to give myself another month to really start feeling good. (I hope it's not too hot outside by then.) I just so enjoyed running last spring. Most of the time I ran on my treadmill, but sometimes RAR & ML got me to go outside and I loved it! I totally get a high from running. It does my body good.

Okay, I'll step back now. I got a little carried away. Yes, NG, I am aching to go now that the baby is here.