Status of Feelings Buried Alive....

[Mamallama]

WHERE IS OUR RINGLEADER FOR THIS BOOKCLUB??? Ahemmm BS........???
What's up?? You haven't quit reading have you??

[Big_Sissy]

Well, lets just say... I can't get myself to read the good stuff. I'm ...

Ok, I'm sorry, I'll get to reading For some reason, and I'm being serious, I can't get myself to get to the script chapter. I know it's my EGO, not letting me, and it's pathetic. It might actually help, and I'm... dragging my feet.

I'll get to reading.

[Mamallama]

That's so funny that you say that about the Script BS. I've been feeling that way too!!

I SKIMMED all the way through the book first and I'm Re-reading it now. After my first SKIM through of the book, some of it I liked, but I also was left feeling quite skeptical about some of it.....I was bothered by the” all illnesses are caused by unresolved feelings….. and I was bothered by the Script….and it bothered me to think I AM responsible for ALL of my problems in life…..

I put the book down for a while and have picked it up again. I’m finding that it’s coming together now…..and as I’ve been mulling this all over in my head now for a while, it’s beginning to make more sense and I’m accepting more of the thoughts here.

Today, I came to realize that some of the things that I have already resolved in my past, were resolved in a similar form to the Script, but more in the form of prayer.

One instance in particular is this: By the age of 33, I had accumulated SO much anger inside of me. Speaking my mind was so difficult for me …Consequently, I accumulated tons of angry feelings that were never expressed. I reached a point where I could not stand to continue living the way I was living-----with all of these feelings…..To make a long story short, I began attending a Bible Study group with women of all different faiths. I mentioned how I had anger inside of me that I couldn’t let go of. The group leader said to me to put my burden at the Lord’s feet. Now I had heard this in my religion all of my life, but hearing it from someone of another religion who said it in such a matter of fact literal way---it hit home. She said just give it to Him, put it at His feet. It was at this same time that I also heard a talk in church that spoke of how we Choose to Love people----it’s not something that just happens.

With those two thoughts in mind:
(1)to Put the Anger at Jesus’ feet
(2)And Choose to Love
that with renewed faith in the Lord’s ability to heal me, I then began to pray every night for the Lord to please take away this anger, that I don’t want to be angry anymore--- I really poured out my heart-----every night on the floor by my bed just sobbing and pleading for the Lord to take this anger out of my heart, to help me to forgive and to help me to love again, to please help me to love again….

After doing this for many many many days, one day, as I was going about my routine, it just hit me----the realization that the anger was gone. I searched my heart and soul….it was GONE!! My husband came home from work that day, and I looked at him and felt love in my heart for him…..something I had not felt for so long…..

In a sense, what I did in praying for this over and over again was similar to what the purpose of the script is. As we say over and over again that this is what we feel, and this is what we want to overcome and this is what we want to be----and ask for God’s help in healing us in these ways, then the Lord can and will take this burden from us and replace that burden with a positive force.

Just put whatever it is at the Lord’s feet----we all can overcome anything!!! I truly believe this and will not let anyone sway me otherwise! Don’t give up!!

[5ft Diva]

Wow, ML! Your story is inspiring. Thank you for sharing. I needed to hear it.

[Big_Sissy]

Indeed. Thank you! See I knew I missed you.

I will begin reading again tomorrow.

[Mamallama]

I'm glad....and can't wait to hear your thoughts! Both of you!

[LostnFound]

Thank you ML for your thoughts. I always enjoy what you write. It is a blessing to have you on this forum to learn your insight on many of these different subjects.

Sorry I couldn't spend more time with you at the parade. Enjoy your trip to Bear Lake.

[Meticulous madness]

Thanks for sharing this, ML!

To look at you now, I would never have guessed that you struggled with anger in your past. You have one of brightest and most loving spirits I have ever witnessed.

There are a lot of things in this book that I've been a bit skeptical of, too. But The Script chapter was actually quite WONDERFUL, I can assure you! I agree with ML that we probably already do this "process" in various personal forms.

[5ft Diva]

You know, you're right. I'd never thought of it that way. That thought is empowering.

[Big_Sissy]

I have a ton to say on this topic, I just need some extra time to make it happen. I'm going to try and get it done tomorrow. I really have enjoyed this book.

[bookworm]

I haven't been reading it much lately, because I'm in a fiction phase. I'm sad though, my favorite author, Robert Jordan passed away over the weekend. He was only like 58 years old. He wrote the "Wheel of Time" fantasy series that is my most favorite- and he was working on the last book in the series when he got sick. He died of a blood disease. Sad day for all of his fans

Anyway, I understand what you are feeling, BS. I usually skim these type of books. I recommend you just skip whatever you're having a hard time with and come back to it later- I did that with this book the first time I read it. Although I did miss some stuff that is important, the world didn't come to an end, and I got that stuff out of it as I read it again later. I still haven't actually read this book cover to cover- I read a chapter here and a chapter there. I was skeptical at first, but I have come to really accept who my spirit is and that I can communicate with my higher self. It's fascinating stuff!

[Big_Sissy]

I've overcome my not wanting to read. I'm through chapter 7 (the script), but I want to go back to chapter 4 and post about it.

I love it, it was a great chapter. I am happy to say I'm finally ready for change. I'm dealing with feelings etc, in a much better way these days. Depak chopra (sp???) and Wayne Dyer have probably been more help though, since what I've been listening to about meditation is awesome, and though I have yet to actually do any of it, listening to it, does seem to help (you know the ones I'm talking about, so THANK YOU FOR SENDING THEM OVER).

Anyway, I just need some time to get my thoughts together and post about them.

[bookworm]

You are so welcome. I agree- Deepak Chopra in particular is AMAZING. I love his stuff. Can't wait to see what you'll post later!

[Big_Sissy]

I just have to remember that his thoughts on religion are DEAD WRONG. As he doesn't believe in organized religion, and he isn't a big person on God. Wayne Dyer is much more God centric, which I like a lot more.

[bookworm]

I actually got the impression that he believes in God, but it's definitely different from how we do. I agree, Wayne Dyer is much better about including God rather than saying "the universe", etc. That's the only thing about "The Secret" that I didn't appreciate was all credit going to the universe (or the "genie") I'm so glad I have the gospel and I can keep all this in perspective. I have a running translation in my mind into my personal beliefs. Wayne Dyer's meditation to make conscious contact with God is my favorite. It is amazing.

[Big_Sissy]

you are right, it's awesome.

I know he does believe in God, but just as you stated, he likes to call it something else.

Wayne Dyer is much more "christian centric"

[5ft Diva]

Hope you don't mind me just butting into your conversation but it's very intriguing. Keep it up. I haven't had any time to read at all...in fact I haven't had any time for myself at all....so I appreciate the opportunity to "live" through your experiences.

[Meticulous madness]

I haven't been able to read in a long time either! So, I eagerly await to hear what BS has to say! Maybe it will get me motivated to pull it out of my drawer and go to town.

[Big_Sissy]

I'm heading out of town for the weekend, so hopefully when I get back I'll have some time to do it.

[Mamallama]

We'll be sitting on pins and needles waiting for your feedback on the book BS!!
Congratulations on finishing it.

I just pulled the book out and looked back on chapter 4. Yep, I got a lot out of that chapter as well....I underlined things all over the place in that chapter.

Have a good trip BS. We'll be anxiously awaiting to hear your thoughts when you get back!!